Depression is a cold dark hole part one
"Depression is a cold dark hole," I looked at myself in my bathroom's mirror. How many lonely depressing nights have I been wasting away and not wanting to face yet another day of my wasted and miserable wretched life.
But there was the bright and glimmering ray of hope that softly whispered very gently inside of my own 'inner ear." Leading me, guiding me, and yet once more again delivering me. From the shackles and chains of my habitual sins that confined me and imprisoned me.
When I was younger, I wanted to end my life by committing suicide and Satan taunted and tormented me and called me a coward. And it was only the The Holy Spirit alive Inside His wayward, unrepentant prodigal daughter that rescued me from The snares and the traps and the lies and the deceit of the enemy of my soul! The sworn enemy of all of humanity. If they weren't not so very blinded to his lies, deceptions and delusions. He would no more power over them nor would he be able to destroy them! But would they listen? But would they only believe in Christ
Jesus! He would able to deliver them by setting their captive spirits and condemned souls free!
How much I did hate myself and the whole entire world only seeking anger and revenge. Until it became an all consuming fire wasting away inside of me. Who could deliver me out of my shackles of painful misery and haunting memories? But than He came and He rescued me again and again throughout the vast majority of my seventy-one's years I have misspent upon this earth.
"He who the Son sets free is free indeed!" What Satan wanted to destroy me. Only gave unto me my redemptive life saving testimony. Just like the group Kansas I lost my religion but I found it again Amen. Only because of Christ Jesus who recalled me once again unto Himself.
All of us who genuinely call upon the name of our Lord shall be saved and He. Will by no means cast us forever into uttermost darkness who truly belong onto Him alone. For it was by my faith in Christ alone who was able to: Deliver me from the cold dark hole of depression that threaten to not Only engulf me but also to destroy me.
All of my love in Christ Jesus!
Roxanne Lea Dubarry
Roxy Lea 1954/October Country
October 15, 2025
