Today in the bathroom stall

poem by: Nemo Nemees
Written on Apr 05, 2018

Today I stood in the bathroom stall
With a sensation of dÃ¨ja vÃ» 
As I stare at the blade in my hand
And my exposed limbs,
Marking the easiest arteries to open
Noting that the stupid pencil sharpener blade
Would never
Be able to open an artery

I walk out of the bathroom
Sadly I cannot say unharmed
Knowing quite well that the blade would not be suitable to do any significant damage,
I still took it
And pressed it as hard as I could
I did what I could to suppress my emotions
So I pulled up my leggings
And then another pair of comfy pants 
Over my thighs
Doubling the layer of clothes
Because I cannot be caught

I walk back to class, only to look down, and see beads of blood forming through my pants

But at this point, no one cares. These people convinced themselves that attention is the only thing I am aiming for
Unknowing that self harm is an addiction
Unknowing that when you cut
Chemicals get released in your brain , making you happier
Unknowing that I wish people didn't know about me
I wish no one knew me

Tags: Sad, Anger, Metaphor, Depressing, Scary, Pain, Dark, Imagery, Hate, Abstract, Fear, Deep,

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Frank Hornby . commented on Apr 05, 2018 at 1:36pm

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Smokey Wraith commented on Apr 09, 2018 at 3:09am

There is a fine line between pain and pleasure. At times we welcome the pain because it reminds us that we are alive. I get this...it's sad but I get it.

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