Steps

I can’t shake this feeling. Something is wrong. 
I don’t trust my friends like I use to. 
Things just are not the same. 
When I was a kid I would run to them with everything, 
And now I run from them to be alone.
I traded in my warm heart, for one frozen cold.
I can't take this world at face value, 
Cause on the surface it looks fucked up.
More people dead on the news, 
A president in my lifetime has never came off so rude.
The people are angry, only come together to march in the streets.
Nothing is changing, and my positive spirit is growing weak.
My music is loud, the playlist in-between.
I want to be happy, I want to have faith
But in this dark time, my smiles been replaced with paint.
I try and I try, and I will keep trying till I die. 
I don’t even know what I am trying for,
But I wont let my feet stop.
Just keep telling myself “right, left, right”.
I keep my eyes on my surroundings.
Its hard to see through this water in my vision.
I feel like Alice in Wonderland, the signs are so confusing:
That way or this way, over there or under here, to decode it impossible.
If only the queen took my head, then I wouldn’t have to think.
Left right left, just keep taking steps 
There is no easy way out. 
Just hold on Denika, we will figure this shit out. 
Or we wont, at least we can say we tried
And through all the tears and the fears
At least you can say you hid the pain in your eyes
But what’s the use of hiding the pain?
When your friends find out they will tell you
“you only have yourself to blame”.
Thank you captain obvious!
I know Its all my fault.
This is my life, it doesn’t belong to anyone else. 
Right, left, right. Just keep it moving
You cant stop now, you cant even rest.
Even when your legs are weak, 
Even when the paint is gone,
Even when the path ends, 
Left, right, left through the trees. 
I can’t see what is ahead of me
Due to budget cuts the lights are off
God help me now because my faith is failing.
Love find me soon because misery won’t let me go.
If you don’t come soon, I fear my heart will be stuck cold. 
And if my heart dies, then there will be no more steps to take
I will sit here in the dark, and I will never leave this place. 

Tags: Sad, Depressing, Pain, Deep,